Sunday, July 18, 20108:38 PM
■ blame myself
It has been some time since I last blogged. Well, some days were fine. Some days just weren't. It's normal but I hate to face it. Sometimes I just left that problem unsolved & move on. Sometimes I fight for it like there's no tomorrow. In fact, the word tomorrow is commonly used for losers like us. Nevertheless, I am trying hard to be out of this plentiful of lazy species who are aimlessly crawling on the surface of Earth.
Have you ever felt like keeping things to yourself & be alone? Then felt like crying for no reason but having the pain in your heart? Even when I'm staring at the laptop, tears can even well up whenever I start to think about something, which I had no clue to what was I even thinking. It's really frustrating having not getting any answer.
I just got no one to talk to. & Whenever I'm stressed about a particular issue with my friends, I tend to signal the wrong impression. & Hence, people labelled me as someone who's had alter-ego attitude problem and love being a pesimistic person. Yeah, it comforts your bloody mouth to say all those nice things but try being in my shoes who's got no one to talk to eversince my loved ones depart for the afterlife.
They're my only talking companion & I've lost that. Well, just fucking get them back from the dead for me & you guys can jolly well fuck yourself with what you want to say about me.
So much for having close friends, family & a boyfriend. Sometimes I felt that no one really wants to hear what my problems are. They're like clouds which comes & go when they're done playing their roles as friends. I think that's bullshit people.
& Just to let you know, I never did appreciate someone so much before in my life. I don't think I need it anymore. Let myself just be this way. Afterall, everyone's pretending that they're giving a shit about it.
Have you ever felt like keeping things to yourself & be alone? Then felt like crying for no reason but having the pain in your heart? Even when I'm staring at the laptop, tears can even well up whenever I start to think about something, which I had no clue to what was I even thinking. It's really frustrating having not getting any answer.
I just got no one to talk to. & Whenever I'm stressed about a particular issue with my friends, I tend to signal the wrong impression. & Hence, people labelled me as someone who's had alter-ego attitude problem and love being a pesimistic person. Yeah, it comforts your bloody mouth to say all those nice things but try being in my shoes who's got no one to talk to eversince my loved ones depart for the afterlife.
They're my only talking companion & I've lost that. Well, just fucking get them back from the dead for me & you guys can jolly well fuck yourself with what you want to say about me.
So much for having close friends, family & a boyfriend. Sometimes I felt that no one really wants to hear what my problems are. They're like clouds which comes & go when they're done playing their roles as friends. I think that's bullshit people.
& Just to let you know, I never did appreciate someone so much before in my life. I don't think I need it anymore. Let myself just be this way. Afterall, everyone's pretending that they're giving a shit about it.