Wednesday, September 9, 20095:26 PM
■ i only want jay and not any other crap/shit!
Today, I'll be strong. I will learn to accept the fact not everyone can forgive
little mistakes like the one he has made. I will learn from this that not everyone
has a heart. I will learn from this that dreams can be taken away just like that.
Because just like that, Jay has left.
Now I feel as if I'm unable to do nothing. That I'm helpless.
That I can't reach out to Jay and help him. That I can't comfort him. its true. i cant!
Usually, I will dwell on it. I will live on it. Eat on it. Sleep on it.
I will be hurt for what's happened. But today, I choose to do things differently.
yes i cried but I will not let my heart ache for Jay. .
I will not dwell on the feelings that his absense will leave me.
It really does make me realize that i can't change what has already happen.
The past is the past, and the future is yet to come. So I agree with you guys,
its time to move on. We can't always linger in the past, mourning over this incident
that left many of us in pain and in hatred. So now its time to move forward,
become stronger, support and love jay no matter what the future may holds.
Instead of being down on myself, I will pick myself up and continue
with my life."I will always have faith and support for Jay. Not just only because
i still love him , but because of the person I know of him to be. I will continue
to root, cheer, and love him
I can cry over this. I can be mad over this. I can be sad over this.
But it only made me realize how much I actually do care for Jay.
Call me a crazy who knows nothing, I could care less. Call me stupid,
I could care less. Say anything you like about me.
I really don't care cause u dont and will never ever understand
I wrote about this because it's what I do to relieve myself.
I wanted to make myself feel better about this whole situation.
I hoped that writing about this matter would make me feel a bit better.
I don't know if it did. But i cant deny the fact tht i miss him.
little mistakes like the one he has made. I will learn from this that not everyone
has a heart. I will learn from this that dreams can be taken away just like that.
Because just like that, Jay has left.
Now I feel as if I'm unable to do nothing. That I'm helpless.
That I can't reach out to Jay and help him. That I can't comfort him. its true. i cant!
Usually, I will dwell on it. I will live on it. Eat on it. Sleep on it.
I will be hurt for what's happened. But today, I choose to do things differently.
yes i cried but I will not let my heart ache for Jay. .
I will not dwell on the feelings that his absense will leave me.
It really does make me realize that i can't change what has already happen.
The past is the past, and the future is yet to come. So I agree with you guys,
its time to move on. We can't always linger in the past, mourning over this incident
that left many of us in pain and in hatred. So now its time to move forward,
become stronger, support and love jay no matter what the future may holds.
Instead of being down on myself, I will pick myself up and continue
with my life."I will always have faith and support for Jay. Not just only because
i still love him , but because of the person I know of him to be. I will continue
to root, cheer, and love him
I can cry over this. I can be mad over this. I can be sad over this.
But it only made me realize how much I actually do care for Jay.
Call me a crazy who knows nothing, I could care less. Call me stupid,
I could care less. Say anything you like about me.
I really don't care cause u dont and will never ever understand
I wrote about this because it's what I do to relieve myself.
I wanted to make myself feel better about this whole situation.
I hoped that writing about this matter would make me feel a bit better.
I don't know if it did. But i cant deny the fact tht i miss him.
♥LOVE&RESPECT♥
I had never lose faith in you, never once before.
I once given up physically, but I had never given up by heart.
You will come back, no matter how long, we will wait till the day you're back
as strong as ever. JAY, I"LL BE WAITING. Ipromiss
